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i’ve just finished watching Tada, Kimi Wo Aishiteru (Just, loving you)… i think it translates to “basta, mahal kita” in tagalog, i’m not really sure… it’s international title is heavenly forest… kasi naman sobrang heavenly rin ng setting ng story… lush greens and deep blue sky ang background ng mga bida… it’s a very simple story… boy meets girl, shares same hobby and house then girl dies and boy realizes his deep feelings… the best part about this one is that chiaki-sama from nodame cantabile is playing the lead guy… gyaaaabboooo!!! *faints*

of course, if you’re not into jdoramas then u couldn’t relate to this hype i’m experiencing right now…

i’ll be watching its photocopy movie, renai shashin/picture of love, in a little while… it stars my girl crush ryoko hirosue… these 2 movies blend love and photography that’s why i became hooked… they have an effect of making you buy an SLR camera after watching… if i had the money, i’d definitely buy my own digital SLR camera… sheessh~

about 2-3 days ago i watched koizora… it was about loving and dying as well… i was drowning in my own tears for the last few days coz i watched a lot of tear jerkers… my workmates were actually asking me why my eyes were swollen the next day… well, night… coz i work at night…

i could remember makoto-kun saying that even one-sided love is complete love… i could relate… coz that’s what i always have… and i’ve had a lot of lost love… i could never confess my feelings as well… explains why i never had a boyfriend ever… last night, new agents were buddying up in the call floor… we did some q & a to get to know each other… they made an over reaction when i informed them about my NBSB state… they wouldn’t believe me… comments like “you’re too beautiful to be single” really annoy me… yeah right… but there’s no one… no one brave enough… or was it more of, i wasn’t brave enough?… hmm… i was so much like makoto-kun who dismisses any love confession and simply disregards any attempt of courting… until one day, the guy slips away… gone without a word, just like shizuru… then the next day i’d be left crying while i remember memories and have regrets… and still like makoto, i continue to fool myself with daydreams… i wonder how long will i stay like this…

but on second thought, this is all a choice… a choice i made for myself… i keep on reminding myself that there should be no regrets… i am happy… really… honestly… i must admit that i hate to bother myself with others’ problems… i’m too selfish to share… i wanna be care-free… clear-minded… happy on my own… and i want to remain like this for at least a little more while…